UPDATE.

HAVEN'T BEEN POSTING FOR MONTHS. DAMN, I MISSED BLOGGIN'..

WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING IN THE MEANTIME? I'VE BEEN TROUGH GOOD AND BAD TIMES. UNFORTUNATELY, I FAILED MY EXAMS.. ON THE OTHER HAND: I AM ACCEPTED AT THE AMSTERDAM FASHION INSTITUTE. PLANS ARE POSTPONED FOR A YEAR BECAUSE OF THIS, SO NEXT YEAR I'M GONNA DO THE SUBJECTS I FAILED IN AND WORK A BIT AND THE YEAR AFTER I'LL BE MOVING TO AMSTERDAM AND STUDY AT THE AMFI. PRETTY EXCITED ABOUT THAT.

WELL VACATION STARTED SO GET READY, I'M BACK POSTING SOON.

SCHOOL IS A BITCH.

TIME IS RUNNING FAST BUT IN ALL THIS TIME NONE IS DEDICATED TO MYSELF. WITH MYSELF I MEAN MY APPEARENCE, MY SOCIAL LIFE, MY BLOG, MY FRIENDS - EVERYTHING THAT IS A PART OF ME. SCHOOL IS TAKING OVER AND I'M GOING TO COLLAPSE SOON. LUCKILY, I AM DONE IN TWO MONTHS SO I AM GOING TO KEEP UP THE 'GOOD' WORK SO THAT I CAN SPAM THIS BLOG ALL OVER AFTER MY EXAMS.

BIG UP TO ALL MY READERS FOR STILL VISITING THIS MESS. IN THE MEANTIME, IF YOU MISS ME THAT MUCH - HOPES UP HIGH - YOU CAN FOLLOW ME AT TWITTER OR ADD ME ON FACEBOOK.

DISASTER AREA.

I'M GETTING FRUSTRATED. TODAY I PLANNED IN - WHILE I AM IN MY WELL DESERVED VACATION - A DAY TO WORK FOR SCHOOL. NO I AM NOT ILL, I DID NOT BUMP MY HEAD AND I AM NOT FORCED TO. I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA. WITH THAT IN MY HEAD I GRABBED MY SKETCH BOOK TO SKETCH SOME SHIT OUT FOR MY EXHIBITION. NEXT YEAR I HAVE TWO EXHIBITIONS BECAUSE I FUCKED UP MY LAST ONE. MY DEAR TEACHER, WHO I ADORE WITH ALL MY HEART, WAS SO KIND TO TELL ME THAT IF MY EXHIBITION WAS DONE BY SOMEONE ELSE IT WOULD HAVE RECEIVED ONE OF THE HIGHEST GRADES OF ALL. BUT UNFORTUNATELY, IT WAS ME, A STUDENT WHICH SHE HAS HIGH EXPECTATIONS OF AND CAN DO MUCH BETTER. AHUM. SURE.

AS YOU MIGHT KNOW OR NOT, I HAVE ALWAYS THE TIME TO MAKE ART AND IF NOT I WILL MAKE TIME FOR IT. SO I DID. WITH A PENCIL IN MY HAND AND MY SKETCHBOOK IN FRONT OF ME I WAS READY. BUT JUST WHEN I WANTED TO START, MY HEAD WAS AS EMPTY AS.. SHIT THAT'S REALLY EMPTY. NOTHING WOULD COME ON PAPER. MY INSPIRATION IS GONE. I'M LOOKING AROUND, THINKING, EVEN WENT OUTSIDE FOR A MINUTE BUT IT DOESN'T HELP. GOT ANY PHILOSOPHICAL TIPS, OR JUST SOME DOPE ARTISTS TEL MEH HEHE.

IT'S ALL ABOUT UNLEASHING FRUSTRATION. AGAIN.

THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD NEVER COME.

BUT YES, HERE IT IS. TODAY I HAD THIS MOMENT AND TOLD MYSELF TO STOP SHITTING AROUND FOR A WHILE AND TAKE SOME TIME FOR MY BLOG AND OTHER THINGS ON THE INTERWEB. LISTENING TO MYSELF, I DID. I CAN APOLOGIZE FOR THE LACK OF POSTING FOR WEEKS SLASH MONTHS BUT BROWSING THRUE THESE PAGES I CAN CONCLUDE THAT I ALREADY DID THAT (MANY TIMES).

THE GOOD NEWS IS: I'M OVER TO MY NEXT AND FINAL YEAR OF SCHOOL :D YOU DON'T REALIZE HOW MUCH EFFORT THAT HAS COST AND I REALIZE THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO DO SO MUCH EFFORT IF I WOULD HAVE DONE SOME SHIT FOR SCHOOL THIS YEAR. BUT IT'S ALL GOOD. I CONVINCED MY MENTOR THAT I'M ABLE TO HANDLE MY EXAMS NEXT YEAR AND THAT SHE AND ALL THE OTHER TEACHERS WOULD REGRET IT IF THEY WOULDN'T LET ME PASS. THE LAST THREAT REALLY HELPED HEHE.

ANYWAYS, THIS SCHOOL YEAR IS DONE (2 WEEKS ALREADY) AND THAT MEANS THAT I HAVE VACATION. I'M NOT GOING TO AN OTHER COUNTRY. A MONTH BEFORE THIS VACATION I WENT TO MOROCCO, WHAT WAS PRETTY CHILL. TWO WEEKS LATER I WENT TO POLAND (KRAKOW) WHAT WAS PRETTY NICE ALSO, DIDN'T EXPECT THAT IT WOULD BE THOUGH. THE MUSIC SCENE IS SICK THERE BY THE WAY. AND YEAS, NOW WE'RE JUST CHILLING IN THE NETHERLANDS HEHE.

JUST WANTED TO UPDATE YOU GUYS. I'M BACK. BETWEEN CHILLING, SHOPPING AND OTHER STUFF I WILL BE POSTING REGULARLY SO KEEP CHECKING.

LOVE.

SCHOOL WAS COOL, UNTIL..

SO MY BLOG IS KIND OF DEAD LATELY. THAT'S BECAUSE A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO I HAD A CONVERSATION WITH MY MENTOR TELLING ME THAT IF I KEEP DOING THE SHIT I DO I WON'T MAKE IT TO MY LAST YEAR. I'VE ALWAYS SAID THAT I WOULD FINISH SCHOOL WITHOUT DOING A YEAR OVER - SO I'M GOING TO STICK TO THAT. SIX YEARS OF SCHOOL IS BAD ENOUGH, I'M NOT STRETCHING THAT TO SEVEN YEARS. BESIDES THAT MY DAD IS ALREADY FLIPPING OUT AND THINKING THAT MY WHOLE SCHOOL CARREER IS CRASHING DOWN GHEHE. JEEZ.. WHAT ONE CONVERSATION CAN DO.

ANYWAYS, I'M GONNA WORK ON MY SCHOOLGRADES SO I CAN CHILL AND PARTY ERRRRDAY THIS SUMMER. I'LL BE BACK :)

SHOOT THEM TEACHERS.

OMGAY, LET'S JUST SAY I JUST REALIZED THAT SCHOOL HAS BEGUN ALREADY. THE PRICE OF WORD OF THE DAY DEFINITELY GOES TO ESSAY, ESSAY AND GUESS WHAT, ESSAY. MY ART TEACHER EVEN CAME UP WITH THE WONDERFUL IDEA TO LET US WRITE AN ESSAY OF 8000 WORDS ABOUT AN ARTIST. WTF? IT IS ART, NOT HISTORY. WE SHOULD PAINT AND DRAW STUFF OR SUM' IN THAT DIRECTION. BUT AN 8000 WORDS ESSAY? I'VE CHOSEN BANKSY BECAUSE THE MAN IS FUCKING BRILLIANT. SECOND OF ALL HE ISN'T DEAD. I KNOW MY WHOLE CLASS WILL DO SOMETHING ABOUT A DEAD ARTIST BUT WHAT'S THE USE OF IT? 'YEAH HE IS GREAT.. AND NOW HE IS DEAD.' END OF YOUR ESSAY.

ANYWAY, I ALSO HAVE A FRENCH PROJECT WHICH INCLUDES AN ESSAY AND PRESENTATION. SAME FOR GERMAN. I AM ALSO ADDING ECONOMICS TO THAT LIST. AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, AN ESSAY FOR ENGLISH. AND IF YOU THOUGHT THAT WAS ALL, THINK AGAIN. I HAVE TONS OF OTHER HOMEWORK.

GUESS WHAT I AM FOCUSING ON THIS COUPLE OF MONTHS? LIFE IS A BITCH.

I WANT, I NEED.

IT IS SO FREAKING FRUSTRATING. I WORK IN A CLOTHING STORE BESIDES MY STUDY, SO HERE IN THE NETHERLANDS WE HAVE THIS THING WE CALL 'KOOPAVOND', TRANSLATED IT MEANS SHOPPING EVENING. MAYBE Y'ALL OUT THERE HAVE IT TOO BUT ANYWAY... EVERY KOOPAVOND AFTER SCHOOL I WORK AND EVERY SATURDAY I WORK TOO. MY SCHOOLDAY ENDS AT 15:45 AND THE STORES HERE CLOSE AT 18:00, SO AFTER SCHOOL I DON'T HAVE TIME AT ALL TO GO SHOPPING... I ALSO HAVE HOMEWORK AND STUFF (MY TEACHERS PROBABLY THINK THAT I DON'T HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE). SO THE ONLY DAYS LEFT ARE SATURDAY AND THURSDAY EVENING - KOOPAVOND. BUT THEN, LIKE I SAID, I HAVE TO WORK... SO I NEVER HAVE TIME TO SHOP PROPERLY!

SO EVERY TIME I SEE ALL THESE PRECIOUS THINGS ON THE INTERNET THAT I WANT SO BAD AND NOT JUST WANT, I NEED 'EM! I'M JUST GONNA MAKE A LIST AND GO ON DREAMING ABOUT THESE ITEMS WHILE WORKING AT SCHOOL AND MY JOB. LIFE IS A BITCH. A HUGE ONE.

VANS ERA'S FROM THIS OCTOBER RELEASE, I NEED THESE BABIES ON MY FEET.

MORE WILL FOLLOW..